Affi
03-11-2005, 12:23 PM
Hi,
I have strange feelings - I can't understand them! /images/graemlins/laugh.gif
I part of me feels so the other so.
The first part says I should be calm and that part also is happy.
But there also is a other part and it feels so unhappy.
Maybe you can remeber - not so long time ago - I had also some down-times, because of Marlene.
I can't explain, what I feel for her, because I myself don't know the answer of the question I'm asking me.
Last weekend I saw her 15minutes. ^^
A short but nice time.
That was nice. But always when there is such a nice moment I think about all the bad experieces I had together with her.
And a 2nd problem is, that I don't know how the things stand at the moment, because a good friend of her and me - Toni - is amoroused.
And I haven't got the time to talk often to him by calling him or her so I don't know what is going up there.
It's a odd situation. I mean ...
I don't know what I mean! XD
I could imagine that they could be a couple the next time and I think it's okay. But I don't know if I still would be able to talk to her same like I do now.
Because what if she fells in love with him and I began again to love her? Then I would be again frustrated.
I have strange feelings - I can't understand them! /images/graemlins/laugh.gif
I part of me feels so the other so.
The first part says I should be calm and that part also is happy.
But there also is a other part and it feels so unhappy.
Maybe you can remeber - not so long time ago - I had also some down-times, because of Marlene.
I can't explain, what I feel for her, because I myself don't know the answer of the question I'm asking me.
Last weekend I saw her 15minutes. ^^
A short but nice time.
That was nice. But always when there is such a nice moment I think about all the bad experieces I had together with her.
And a 2nd problem is, that I don't know how the things stand at the moment, because a good friend of her and me - Toni - is amoroused.
And I haven't got the time to talk often to him by calling him or her so I don't know what is going up there.
It's a odd situation. I mean ...
I don't know what I mean! XD
I could imagine that they could be a couple the next time and I think it's okay. But I don't know if I still would be able to talk to her same like I do now.
Because what if she fells in love with him and I began again to love her? Then I would be again frustrated.