my birthday

[sillymoo]

it is my birthday next week and i am not looking forward to it one bit. i will be 22 and i will be going out with a few people but the people who mean the most to me wont be there. my friend who i have known for 8 yrs has moved to america my best friend of 20 years has decided to ignore me for no reason and has been saying things about me behimd my back and now my dad wont be here AGAIN .he wasnt here for my 14th 16th 17th 20th and now my 22nd all these dates was because his wife decded to book holidays over my birthday. i know it shouldnt get to me because im going to be older now but i am so close to my dad after alot of things that have happend at home (and are still happaning and with all the money problems we have i just dont want my birthday to come.
i am sooooooooooooo frustrated i want to scream.
the only good thing about my birthday is that it is on a saturday and charmed is on