I need to talk.

[CrimsonRegret]

I've battled depression for six years. I can handle some things. I guess my problem is that I bury things deep down. I try to be the strong one. The one my friends can come to with their problems while I battle my own demons internally. I can't ask for help, I don't know how. Here, on this bored, in this thread is the only way I feel I can safely reach out for help. Without the risk of someone telling my parents and destroying my life.

But what can you do? What can anyone do when they have a mother who constantly critisizes, a sister who compares herself to you when she's a twig who thinks she fat and you aren't a thin person at all, and an absent brother who used to beat you up at the time when you most needed him, and an absent father? I don't know what to do anymore guys, and I really really need someone to talk to. Please, can someone help me? Before I do something I really regret. I just...I dunno anymore.

[Shaunzo]

Crimson, you have come to the right place to discuss your problem.
You should never keep your personal feelings bottled up inside you. This induces anxiety. I advise that you speak with someone you absolutely trust.
From what i can see, you seem have a personal trait that your family knows about and is jealous of. I think your sister may be trying to imitate you because she wants to be like you, for whatever reason that might be. Also, I don't really know how old you are, but usually most parents critisize either to teach a lesson you're sure to use down the road, or to give proper guidance. I understand how stressed out you are, and please know that we are always here to help out our safesearching friends. By absent, i can only interpret that your sibling and father aren't living in the house. If this is so, then it would put an awful lot of stress on your mother which can lead to criticism. It's hard to be two people in one and this may be what's causing your problem. If you have any questions, please send me a PM. I am here to listen to you and to help you through your time of need.

[sammypoo1]

i was exactly like that when my nan died, my mums mum. i wanted to stay strong, for both my nan and my mum, so i held everything inside and stayed strong for my mum. then a few months later my grandad died, my dads dad. again i didnt talk about it and i wanted to be the strong one. i didnt want to let anything affect me because then i would see it as a weakness. mainly i wanted to be there for my mum and dad when they needed someone to lean on.

but u need to realise that u need to have someone to lean on aswell, its ok every once in a while to cry and show emotions, it just shows that we are human. even if u just talk to a pet or something (i know it sounds crazy but it works), getting it off ur chest will make u feel alot better.

at the moment u are probably finding that every little thing bothers u or upsets u? if so its because all of the other bigger issues are bottled up and thats why its happening. do u have a trusted friends u can tell about all of this, someone that will just be willing to sit down and listen?

i know my advice was pretty much what u didnt want to hear, trust me i have been there, but when my boyfriend sat me down and didnt let me go until i told him everything, yeah it did hurt bringing up old memories but now its so much easier and im a stronger person now that what i have ever been,

i hope this helps,

sammy :)

[Mavrick]

What they said is pretty much right, so I won't lecture. I just wanted to let you know we care, and we'll listen.
Cheer up!;)

[CrimsonRegret]

I wanted to thank you guys. Everyone. It's just really tough around here. But thanks!