Tierd of being depressed

[1daysfan]

Hi,
I just wanted to say that i have been going through depression for a real long time. I mean who would'nt be depressed after going through so much as i did some say i just want attention some say i like being depressed but i don't no one does at least not that i know of. As a child my parents were divorced my mom had a drug problem my dad just did'nt know what it took to be a dad. I was passed back and forth from parent to parent so much i felt like a yo yo i was mentaly physicaly and sexauly abuse at a young age all bye people who were supposed to love&protect me from all those things but mom put me down when she felt the urge slapped me around when she was mad at the world my dads wife did the same as my mom.My grandmothers husband did the sexaual abuse from the time i was 5 till i was around 10 or so.So i have always been someone that kept everything bottled up and took all that was thrown at me.And to this day i still do the same thing keep it put down inside till i cant put anymore down there and BOOM i explode i have been on so many depreesion meds and nothing helps.But belive me i am so tierd of being this way and am trying despertly to get over it.

[Shaunzo]

1daysfan,
First of all, it means so much to me that you took the time to explain your problem here. Please know, that you should never feel afraid to keep things bottled up in this forum. We are here to help you.
In regards to your concern, You should seek appropriate counsel in about your probiem. Everyone has rights, and unfortunately, abuse is not a right. It's a crime. I recommend you get the help you deserve by calling your local police force or support line. If you don't feel comfortable in doing that, there are free and confidental services such as the Kids Help Phone you can call at 1-800-668-6868 . You do not have to give your name or personal information for this service and they can be every bit as helpful. I recommend giving them a try.

[geekazoid]

Hi 1daysfan,

I obviously can't imagine how you feel, but I do know how it feels to be depressed, and if you feel medication is not helping please tell someone. I found that the only way was to pull myself out of it, which was so hard, but I knew it had to be done. Shaunzo is right, abuse is a crime, and if you feel you can you should report it, although it obviously doesn't change what happened to you, it may stop it happening to someone else. Good luck, and if you ever need anything, just pm me

[eminemrocks2804]

Hi,
I just wanted to say that i have been going through depression for a real long time. I mean who would'nt be depressed after going through so much as i did some say i just want attention some say i like being depressed but i don't no one does at least not that i know of. As a child my parents were divorced my mom had a drug problem my dad just did'nt know what it took to be a dad. I was passed back and forth from parent to parent so much i felt like a yo yo i was mentaly physicaly and sexauly abuse at a young age all bye people who were supposed to love&protect me from all those things but mom put me down when she felt the urge slapped me around when she was mad at the world my dads wife did the same as my mom.My grandmothers husband did the sexaual abuse from the time i was 5 till i was around 10 or so.So i have always been someone that kept everything bottled up and took all that was thrown at me.And to this day i still do the same thing keep it put down inside till i cant put anymore down there and BOOM i explode i have been on so many depreesion meds and nothing helps.But belive me i am so tierd of being this way and am trying despertly to get over it.

i no its hard and very confusing, but you need to try your hardest to get through this and move on with your life. i cant say that ive been thorugh the same as you but i have been through some terrible things and i no that you have to put your own life back on track no matter how much your parents lives are messed up. my dad is a violent alcholoic and iv watched him beat my mum to tears so many times and cried in my room as i waited for him to turn on me. my dad did a strech in prison and that was the happiest year of my life. my mum is deppressed and has tried to kill herself before. the only way that i have and am geeting thorugh this is to put myself in a protected bubble. i know it sounds lame but it has worked with me. you say to yourself that you are concentrating on you life and getting your self through and say that you are not gonna turn out like your familey. you have to belive and trust yourself not to mess up like your family. i no it might not work for you but it did for me i am now 15 and have learned how to cope with my dad and his violence towards me. i have always told myself that i am going to get through this and that when i have kids i am gonna give them so much love that they cant bear it. im gonna make it right and always keep smilling. i advise you to try what i did and make the most of the life that you have got, remember you dont get another one so live your life the best you possibly can, and always keep smilling, its the best therepy!!! Im sorry if this doesnt help but i dont want you to have your life ruined by your family like mine almost was!!!!!

Love beckie xx x xxx

[dark_angel]

as the others have said we dont have any idea how u must feel but take Shaunzo's advice and ring that number.....hope u will sum day be ok...:-) xx