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I have no idea why I wrote this...


You wouldn't remember the smile on my face
or the tear caressing my cheek
your hand felt numb
as my heart felt weak
and it was unbareable

Was it you who could move mountains
and fix this shattered heart
the soul that would never die
spirt that could be unbroken
there was nothing it seemed you couldn't do

Your eyes lingered on mine
and for a moment a spark lit
but then there was nothing
no feeling, no touch that could bring that back.
I was just another stranger in your world

You watched every competition
took me to every pratice and drove me home
You gave me long lectures I didn't really enjoy
You sat me down and wiped my tears
and jumped for joy when I smiled and laughed

I held your hand and waited for his kiss,
the whisper he promised and the light at the other end
I waited by your side even though you didn't remember
your own child no longer a child.

We walked those halls together in the beginning
with my hand in yours and yours in mine
each step took us to different heights
I grew up and we grew apart
At the end of the journey I still had miles to walk
you had already taken flight

I sang the song you loved
without pleasure without joy
I sang louder than ever
with an empty heart and a clenched fist.
I sang a song I hated to sing
I sang it all for you.

Be proud of me
embrace me
I am all you created
I am all you destroyed
the shattered pieces of me
are yours to keep
because once I stop crying these tears that sting,
the scars in my soul will mend my bleeding heart
and I will stand stronger than I did before.

I love you forever and ever
I will never forget your kind loving heart
and the warmth that surrounded you
your life changed mine and gave me a reason
May you find the peace you were looking for